|April 29, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
Just when I’d decided perfection of work ethic during fatigue was impossible, and stopped trying to achieve it, I found the way.
I didn’t change anything about the koan setup. I just understood the meaning better.
It was the circle around the switchboard that was the key. I looked at it differently. I saw that it was a summoning circle – for my own consciousness. For we are spirit, bound to flesh. Without that spirit, our bodies would be something – not quite the Forged of JRR Martin, but something more animal, certainly. Or perhaps we are so wonderfully interknit, brain to supernatural monad, that there would be no detectable difference. I only know that I am here, and immaterial, hence summoned.
And while here, I choose to remain within that circle, come what may. These are my true bounds. Like a fusion reactor, the key is the containment field. Within the circle, in the tongues flow, the mind remains fluid, like water, and the true self is expressed, a constant dynamic flux. Breach the containment field, and the reaction quickly wastes and weakens. Therefore, the first and only rule is to remain within the circle.
All within the circle is opaque – a containment field strong enough to keep the overmind out also does not let it peer in. I cannot predict my actions in this mode. Past performance and probability may still hold, or may not – but deliberate intention is gone.
So many great men have had developed powerful theses on the right way to be, the fundamental Dao. Tolstoy’s love, kindness, naturalness, and connection to God. Shakespeare, the PUAs, the Christians, Buddhists, endless. I have searched and sifted, and conclude that they all describe symptoms, and righteous inflections, worthy of inclusion – but not the root overmind act. That root act is containment.
The points of the others are worthy of consideration and adoption, but only the contained unconscious mind is capable of doing so. And much of what they teach flows naturally, once containment is achieved.
As health is the first moral virtue, from which all others flow, so containment is the first mental virtue, upon which all psychology depends.
My first day on containment, Wednesday April 30, is the date of Jesus’ crucifixion. A good birthday.
Jesus’ containment circle was perfect. It kept him up on that cross, when at any moment he could have come down, solely because that was God’s will. We must strive to be like him.
To be contained is to be crucified, as Christ was crucified. It is the best and only answer to one’s sins and failings – which when they flash before my eyes, make me wince with ingenopathic pain. This is the only true freedom and happiness possible on Earth.
Healthwise, I am on experiment 6 using trialstream. I expect success by experiment 6, 7 at the latest. I’m retesting live abalone. If abalone fails, I’ll go to sea salt.
I’m healthy today after the live shrimp disaster, symbol ID reaction speed ~500 ms, work ethic high. But salt depletion is gradually catching up. Hence the abalone retest now.
My first task, besides building up a lead on my day job, is clearing the backlog in my personal email inbox.
There is a lot of time in a day when one works for its entirety. And there is great peace when working in the contained state, because nothing changes that state. Yet it is the opposite of emotionally flat. This is what I’ve been searching for. It did exist, after all.
I finished Tolstoy’s War and Peace today. His closing essay made me finally understand analogy between human action and Einsteinian relativity: causation is in the eye of the beholder. Tolstoy’s unknown force is known today – evolutionary biology. The resistlessness of the contained state is a denial of the illusion of overmind free will, and a rejection of the pride of man.
I added “Rel” above the left palm “tree of knowledge” koan cluster, to symbolize this relativity. I anticipate that it will greatly improve my PUA and social interaction performance in general, to understand that the perception of leading, of causing an event to occur, is an illusion.
Forgive the fragmentation of this post. It was written over 24 hours, from epiphany to first day of testing, an extreme level of caution by my publishing standards.
One must write while the epiphany is hot, before it fades into unconscious competence.