The hourglass and the switchboard
|April 25, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
Thanks to a power outage, I consumed some spoiled shrimp meat and went down again. At least, that’s what I think happened. Alternatively, I can only eat the juice of the farmed live shrimp, not the meat. Alternatively, both juice and meat are irritating: the meat extremely so, the juice mildly so. Next week’s experiment will clarify. In any case, mineral depletion and continual exposure to varying levels of TPP are solved.
Being sick, I had the opportunity to test my koans again in a fatigued, low-willpower, suffering state. Could I maintain work ethic? No.
The wattage is so dim in those circumstances, no current can be wasted. No resistance can be permitted. The slightest dissonance is fatal.
Nor is the opposite sustainable – stress driven, effortful peaks. The brief overexertion leads to long troughs, greater exhaustion, and a profusion of dissonance.
Everything must be perfectly congruent, easy and effective. A most demanding set of psychological design specifications. How to try, without trying? How to punish, without punishing? How to feel, without forcing? How to think, without falseness? How to know that all is well, when all is not?
I said I was unable to maintain work ethic – at first. I was close to the true answer – I could feel it. But I was just slightly off. Still, being slightly off was enough to ruin the whole effect.
The new system is composed of four core symbols and one switchboard. Two cores sit on the palms, the other two on the back of the hands. The switchboard is split between the index and thumb of the back of each hand.
** The two palm koans
I suppose the right place to start is the two stilling, water, peace koans – the two on the palms.
The right palm holds “IBGFS”, which means “Ingenopathic Bond with God – Father and Son”. I’ve written previously about it. Satisfying the ingenopathic bond condition is necessary to exit the social emergency mode activated by tribal conflict. This is the first component of peace.
*** [Tree] CoL
The left palm stills the racing mind, roaring ambition, and lashing self-criticism. I learned it from Tolstoy’s War and Peace – an epic book every ingenopath must read, along with Anna Karenina (start with the latter).
The tree stands for the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. Tolstoy writes:
It is natural for us who were not living in those days to imagine that when half Russia had been conquered and the inhabitants were ficeing to distant provinces, and one levy after another was being raised for the defense of the fatherland, all Russians from the greatest to the least were solely engaged in sacrificing themselves, saving their fatherland, or weeping over its downfall. The tales and descriptions of that time without exception speak only of the self-sacrifice, patriotic devotion, despair, grief, and the heroism of the Russians. But it was not really so. It appears so to us because we see only the general historic interest of that time and do not see all the personal human interests that people had. Yet in reality those personal interests of the moment so much transcend the general interests that they always prevent the public interest from being felt or even noticed. Most of the people at that time paid no attention to the general progress of events but were guided only by their private interests, and they were the very people whose activities at that period were most useful.
Those who tried to understand the general course of events and to take part in it by self-sacrifice and heroism were the most useless members of society, they saw everything upside down, and all they did for the common good turned out to be useless and foolish- like Pierre’s and Mamonov’s regiments which looted Russian villages, and the lint the young ladies prepared and that never reached the wounded, and so on. Even those, fond of intellectual talk and of expressing their feelings, who discussed Russia’s position at the time involuntarily introduced into their conversation either a shade of pretense and falsehood or useless condemnation and anger directed against people accused of actions no one could possibly be guilty of. In historic events the rule forbidding us to eat of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge is specially applicable. Only unconscious action bears fruit, and he who plays a part in an historic event never understands its significance. If he tries to realize it his efforts are fruitless.
The more closely a man was engaged in the events then taking place in Russia the less did he realize their significance. In Petersburg and in the provinces at a distance from Moscow, ladies, and gentlemen in militia uniforms, wept for Russia and its ancient capital and talked of self-sacrifice and so on; but in the army which retired beyond Moscow there was little talk or thought of Moscow, and when they caught sight of its burned ruins no one swore to be avenged on the French, but they thought about their next pay, their next quarters, of Matreshka the vivandiere, and like matters.
Since it is only unconscious action that bears fruit, the overmind is permanently silenced. This stills much maladaptive deepsock activity, with no loss in perspicacity or unnatural lobotomy.
“CoL” stands for “Conditions of Life”, something Tolstoy frequently speaks of. Historical and personal forces generate conditions of life, which an individual is bound to follow, like an irresistible current in which a minnow swims. Change comes, and new conditions of life arise. Wisdom lies in accepting the condition and taking the best action available therein. The wise general, Kutuzov, understands the nature of the current and his own limited strength.
Therefore I believe this suffering was sent to teach me leadership, first of myself, then of others. And Tolstoy’s lesson of leadership is simple – there is no such thing. Only in weakness could I learn this.
As the Chinese said: Be still, like water, and take the shape of the vessel. Lao Tzu and Tolstoy’s analysis of Russian strategy have much in common. Not that war is always so animal and fudgy – but humans always are. Even when they achieve focus and intelligent self-direction in some specific domain, the essence and whole remains unchanged.
** The two back of hand core koans
*** [heart] only
Being an unconscious actor, unresisting to the conditions of life, how should I interact with others? By heart only. That is the only answer. The deepsock overmind is wholly unsuited to the modern social milieu. And in general, feeling is better than not feeling. For many reasons, I often do not feel. This corrects that error.
*** [cross] suffer [skull]
With all this peace, how do I motivate myself to act? I thought that peace and good feeling alone would level the barriers, and generate right action. But it not so. The spirit is willing, but the flesh has its own agenda of sloth and vice. Therefore the spirit must bear a whip, to drive the animal forward. This whip must bite terribly, yet do no lasting harm.
The three prior core koans do much to prevent psychological self-harm. But it is still tricky to find a lash that stings only until right action is restored. It must not judge the past or worry the future, but only concern itself with Now.
My lash is effective for me. The cross stands for the suffering of Christ, and is a reminder that men was born to suffer. The skull is a memento mori, and a reminder of punishment, judgment, damnation, the just reward of worthless servants who fail their God. Not that I fear for my salvation – but the animal responds to pain. I inflict this suffering until the pernicious activity ceases, and then immediately relent.
This gradually saps the pleasure from vice, and constantly interrupts its career.
** The switchboard
None of this would work, however, without the switchboard. For during fatigue, the mind narrows to a tunnel. Only one or two things can be grasped. The strain of retaining the whole system would preclude any work, and only worsen fatigue and frustration.
Furthermore, it is not enough simply to be aware of a particular koan cluster. Overmind activity does not lead to action. Only unconscious thought bears the fruit of action, although the overmind ever deceives itself that it is in charge.
Thus the will does nothing more than activate the tongues stream. The overmind does nothing more than select one of four directions for it to go. The unconscious impetus of tongues then translates the selected koan cluster into feeling and action.
Nothing could be a simpler job for the overmind+will than to evaluate the situation, select the appropriate cluster, and initiate the tongues flow. And nothing could be easier for the unconscious than to translate the rich context into right action.
Thus the activated will is conserved, as the sand in an hourglass is conserved by the narrowness of the neck. Will pours through the tiny aperture of the switchboard, a grain at a time, triggering landslides of unconscious action below.
Pit, pat, pit, pat. Intermittent, not continuous. The overmind+will has retreated from the world, which it can never hope to control, to the modest, gentle internal action which it can always control. Frustration thus ceases.
That is relaxed execution, social grace, joy and peace, smooth transitions, and right action.
Nor is the object here to work all the time. There is a time for rest and a time for play. Indeed, there is no object here at all. It is simply a way of being. Sela.