The trialstream meta-experiment begins
|April 7, 2014||Posted by Koanic under unity|
In many ways I’m like a factory whose reactor has been offline. The bots scurried around improving designs and machinery for a decade, but everything awaited core spinup. Thanks to the trialstream scientific approach, core spinup is achieved. Now factory systems are coming to life – systems unrecognizable from what existed on the floor 10 years ago, the last time it was running.
With the reactor (health) safely running in trialstream mode, I next turned my attention to implementing trialstream in the next life domain. I immediately faced three big theoretical questions:
1. Which domain first?
2. How to adapt the health method to a different domain?
3. Where to begin a new trialstream?
I also faced three practical questions:
1. How to disambiguate overlapping domain boundaries?
2. What is the right balance between fuzzy comprehensiveness and lightweight adherence?
3. What kind of hypotheses and experiments can I run for social and income?
For a while, I flailed about in this sea of interrelated question marks. Finally I found solid land – the simplest way to begin a trialstream is by tracking what’s already happening. This is the first discipline. After a bit of tracking, with condition 0 raw data recorded and the default process exposed, one can then design trial 1.
The mere act of tracking reduces susceptibility to emotionally driven self-misperception and its attendant disadvantages. It thereby increases one’s feeling of self-efficacy, an important component of confidence and well-being. It corrects psychological blind spots and strengthens the sense of personal narrative. This telos gives added vigor and enthusiasm to action.
The immediate need for tracking was in the social domain. I’d begun making outings, in response to emotional pressure in the evenings for social contact. This was partly a new desire brought by health, and partly a need that had gone unmet due to poor health and overwork. In any case, it was now possible and imperative to address the void, before I’d be able to apply stable focus to income generation.
I found a good rhythm of an outing at sundown for ~2 hours that fulfilled the need and provided a stable cheap, repeatable experiment with inherent value. I figured I could combine it with learning Chinese to fill any dead interstitial time, so I’m out nothing but cab fare at worst.
Next, database design. It’s easy to sperg out with social tracking, and try to build some ridiculous interlocking web thing. For the first iteration, I eschewed that and focused on a fuzzy performance tracking style inspired by my health setup, with heavy emphasis on broad inputs and KPI’s, rated 1-5. Plus a few objective metrics to keep things honest. For results, I combined general emotional fulfillment/enjoyment with platonic (networking included) and PUA metrics. I made two tables, a daily one and an outing-specific one, since I view outings as particularly suitable for trialstreaming. A little puzzling and the overlap ambiguity was sorted, although I’m sure it’ll refine itself over time.
I don’t really have a social hypothesis/prediction experiment running now. Just a tracking awareness feedback loop. However, I am running an informal experiment, with very good initial results.
In truth, my hand koans are optimized for working in isolation. I realized recently that there is no way to reconcile this meditative mode with the social mode. They have completely different demands. So I gave up trying to create one koan system that works for both, and started a new koan stream on the underside of my wrists purely for social contexts. This severely stripped down version is as follows:
left wrist underside:
CFC K (means Conidence/Faith/Commitment in Koans, ie undoubting immersion in them)
SVM (means self value matrix, a way of expressing self interest in terms of an economic demand matrix)
right wrist underside:
sigma (the sociosexual rank I can aspire to and/or emulate)
Doing this clarified to me that koans have always been a kind of informal experiment. When I encountered dissonance and poor performance, I modified the koans to achieve a better fit. For now, I’m content to let social stay in organic free-flow. After all, I need do very little to fill the social deprivation void. I am not yet looking for outsize success.
The domain I AM looking to push aggressively is income. I completed the basic tracking setup, a separate database table. The fundamental input metric is timergy (time plus energy), rated 1-5. This obviates onerous time tracking. At the moment, the main output metric is SVM, a measure of expected dollar value plus fulfillment. I will add a non-daily table to track income/period for different sources, supported by automatic calculations for inputs and outputs, when it becomes relevant. That way I can simply drop in e.g. a monthly paycheck from YNAB, enter the date range and source, and auto-calculate the associated inputs and SVM. (A high SVM and low dollar income from a particular source might indicate a hobby, not a business.)
For now, the timergy daily tracker is simply telling me where I’m investing, and how much I feel I’m getting back. This produces greater time-value consciousness, and is worth the minute or so it takes to fill in per day.
As an ingenopath, I have massive social, income and executional blind spots. This meta-experiment is intended to correct those cognitive maladaptations. My health ordeal forced me to recognize my shortcomings by drastically reducing my cognitive abilities, self-perception, and emotional stability – rendering me unable to solve the puzzle until I fixed my blind spots. Naturally, it seems wise to apply the same method to other domains. We’ll see how it goes.
I’ve just noticed that the social koan mode is also effective during the low-energy state right as I stop working and transition to going to bed. I often face a depressive lull then as I try to shift activities. So perhaps the social mode is actually simply a lower intensity mode. Which suggests that the deepsock problem is actually one of two modes – the overpowered reflective mode, and the rough and tumble low-focus mode. Retitling”social” mode to “low-focus” mode will make appropriate switching easier.