Thal required reading: The Cycle of Arawn
| December 4, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
I just finished reading the Cycle of Arawn. It’s totally awesome. And remarkable, in that the author provides a fully fleshed portrait/critique of the Neandethal, in his tribal Norren race. I don’t think there’s any way he could’ve done this without being some kind of Edenist.
The series is dark, wry, intelligent, of epic length, and took 7 years to write – just the way I like them. The author appears to understand both the ingenopathic and psychopathic sides of the coin, which is admirable.…
Spartano-Capitalism
| November 17, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
The near-unanimous rejection of my Iron Coin Neo-Sparta state proposal is unsurprising and to some extent a source of pride at the rhetorical level, but disappointing at the dialectical level. The theory proceeds in a logically necessary chain. Why don’t you tell me with which step you disagree?
1. We should design a state that can succeed (golden age of empire) without devolving into putrescent decay (decadent/decline phase). (John Glubb)
1a. The Spartan state is the only exception to Glubb’s 250-300 year limit, and thus correct the starting point.…
The Iron Coin as Currency
| November 10, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
Sparta is the only state to beat Glubb’s cycle of history lifespan limit on empire. The Spartans avoided corruption by various Draconian (Lycurgan, really) measures, including the use of iron for currency. While this is not feasible in a modern economy, the idea is adaptable.
My system calls for two representative political bodies, the house of blood and the house of gold. But perhaps the name of the former should be changed to the house of iron.…
What 4th Generation War Teaches Us About the Ideal State
| November 9, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
Thanks to Vox, I have been reading John Lind’s writings on 3rd and 4th generation war.
Man is a killer ape, his evolution spurred by tribal war long after the megafauna went extinct. Better at war is not necessarily better, and this evolutionary impetus explains the sapiens mess. Nevertheless, since war is the acme of man, war strategy is the acme of strategy. All life is war, because the last remaining constraint is human. And man finds fulfillment of his nature in it, because that is what we evolved to be.…
Some productivity koans and tactics
| November 9, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
I work on a TR-1200 DT5 Lifespan treadmill now. This greatly improved my productivity, but I still had some issues.
I have a dual monitor setup and use Cyborganize. However, I was still experiencing mental friction. It turns out that there is a friction inherent in screens. When I added a large paper notebook to my productivity setup, this friction went away. It seems that not only do the feet need to move forward, the hands do as well.…
The engine of dreams
| November 9, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
The most central part of the koans is the core, the always-on permanent steady state. It must be adaptive for both social and solo work. It must express the heart congruently with the full range of affect. It must silence maladaptive discursive thought without clouding the mind. It must inspire and motivate without disconnecting from reality.
My solution is “Faith Tongues [heart symbol] Dreams”.
Working backwards, Dreams stands for visualizing my dreams of advancing the Kingdom of God.…
To judge or not to judge?
| November 8, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
The Bible says “Judge not,” and “Judge them by their fruits.” Popular, PUA and self-help culture are similarly confused. Are we to possess sound judgment, yet not exercise it? Such schizophrenia is not feasible – it is not even coherent.
Rather than throw out tested, time-honored tradition like a filthy liberal, let us correct our theory to reflect the facts. There are multiple levels of judgments, not one. Spiritual judgment occupies the highest moral valence. Intellectual judgment concerns probabilities and analysis.…
Take up thy laptop and walk!
| October 20, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
Turns out the Chinese cigarette brand I was smoking was also functionally poisonous. Zhongnanhai 8’s. Dunno if they have any additives; internet research implied not, for Chinese cigarettes in general. But they do quite a bit of treatment and processing on the tobacco, and there’s a filter, so that could be enough.
In any case, the evidence was clear. I switched to handrolls and lotsa problems went away, including poor quality sleep. So that explains a lot, because my attempts to work were always linked to heavy cigarette consumption.…
Chickity China, the Chinese Chicken
| October 13, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
It’s not just fatigue I’ve been dealing with. The gut is the center of the immune system. An irritant passes through and filters into the bloodstream, kicking off the immune response. It’s a full body event that’s like a low temperature fire. All systems are affected.
It was the damn Chinese chicken. They’ve got that nightmare cocktail of random drugs only a psychopath would put into food, plus the usual horrid CAFO meat product. No organic out here.…
Koanimal post
| October 11, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
I have misunderstood the purpose of koans. They are an evolving, self building set of psychological rails that grow with the process of maturation.
I need a single KPI that captures absolute success or failure. The accurate metric is God’s accounting system, as described in Jesus’ parables of the talents.
Cyborganize is missing the tactical time execution component. That piece is already done by Cal Newport in his book, How to be a Straight A Student.…
Feminism Refuted in 10 Words: A Chinese Epigram
| September 20, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
Doll house whore house cat house grass house.…
Problems in koan design
| September 19, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
So, my two tests for koan design are the following:
1. Work despite fatigue
2. Cold approach
These represent peak difficulty for conscientiousness and social adaptation respectively.
Interestingly, focus/conscientiousness and social adaptation are inversely correlated. I am naturally good at working with laser focus, because my brain architecture relies heavily on filtering, abstraction and barriers. I am naturally bad at extrovert socializing, for the same reasons.
Likewise, a koan that produces intensely focused work is likely to bomb socially, and a fuzzy feel-good koan that works socially is likely to ruin discipline when working alone.…
The Way’s Sacrifice
| September 11, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
I’ve dithered on naming conventions. A koan is by definition a word or set of words. My primary meditation now is wordless. Koans are just secondary triggers to maximize meditation uptime. I think I’ll call the wordless meditation the Way.
In a previous post I wondered what exactly doing the Way all the time sacrificed. It was unclear because I hadn’t tested it in a non-suffering state. Now that I have more abundant energy, the sacrifice becomes clear.…
MT TV and fully amphibian koans
| September 10, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
Every now and then there’s a perfect MT TV show. Both “Profit”s qualify – one an entrepreneurial how-to, the other a corporate psychopathy how-to. “Fargo” is another, a Minnesota hit-man character study of the wolf. Of the three, the last career appeals to me most viscerally, were it possible to only kill the wicked or r-selected; i.e., the vast majority.
The “I have chains” trigger koan worked fine in painful, straitened circumstances, but is slightly inadequate for happy ones.…
Adapting the meditation to happiness
| September 9, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
Well, I just had my version of a perfect day. Full work day, half standing, half at desk, with no fatigue. Instead of collapsing into a stupor at the end, took a walk, made a high-utility friend, and then resumed productivity at home.
I’ve only exposed one hole in the meditation. While social performance is great, it seems somewhat poorly adapted for expressing and experiencing positive emotion. (Ha ha, wonder why.) The result is either underexpression of positive affect or succumbing to the temptation to go “off-script” and interrupt meditation.…
Combining chains and point for massive results
| September 9, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
It’s a bizarre feeling when everything starts to work at once. There were so many necessary but not sufficient components to return me to a reasonably functional level. I seem to have finally stepped over that threshold. Instead of merely having achieved minimal biological stability and productivity for some of each day, I’m at moderately subpar biological health and moderately above average productivity each day.
The rice content of my meals had indeed crept up too high, a conservative tendency that resulted in a subtle buildup of malnutrition forcing overeating to get at the buried meat nutrients.…
They do exist
| September 8, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
The chains koans’ resistance to fatigue is superlative. It’s beyond anything I’ve tested. I haven’t hit invulnerability yet, but I’m making steady progress towards the ocean floor.
I decided to go ahead and make my armor active instead of passive, burning out any sources of downtime procrastination by deleting them, setting up barriers, etc. This would’ve been a useless gesture while the urge was still overwhelming, since I’d just bypass the barriers during a sufficiently long downtime.…
Going deeper below the fatigue waterline
| September 6, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
I’ve been trying to maintain fatigue resistance deeper and deeper below the waterline. I’m definitely making progress, becoming tougher. But I still crack, still fail. Which lets me identify design faults, hence the post.
At below waterline, willpower and focus are practically nonexistent, so you only get space for one koan, and it must be a highly efficient motivator. Any kind of “become chains” or “I am chains” koan works ok in the shallows, but fails at middle depths.…
On escaping chains
| September 5, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
My physical energy reserves are pathetic. Five non-consecutive hours on my feet and I’m as tired as a normal man would feel after a day’s physical labor. It’s been like this forever, but I seem constitutionally incapable of fully recognizing such things when they are ambiguously intermixed with moral failure. Fortunately, that is no longer the case.
I can feel each new acknowledged limitation like a link in the chains binding my body, settling me into fixity, diminishing superfluous possibilities.…
Adding heartbeat and correcting the “why”
| September 5, 2014 | Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized |
My primary goal now is to avoid sub-waterline fatigue state by never ever shifting my Circadian smoking and eating Zeitgeibers. It seems to be going well; I’m sleeping at sunset and waking an hour or two before dawn. I paid my painful debt from the 00:00 Sunday evening deadline-induced bedtime without further fuckups and am recovered.
I’ve also improved the meditation a bit further. It’s already linked to breathing; linking it to the heartbeat as well gives it a much stronger, more immersive rhythm.…