|August 21, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized|
During downtime lately, I’ve been reading trash fiction, mostly fantasy. It’s pathetic, but when fatigue levels rise to the point that standing is a non-trivial exercise, the brain also seems to lose something, and thumbing through pages on a smartphone is about all I can manage.
Not to worry, the health problem remains solved. This is more just cogitations I lacked the capacity to put together during my summer of hellish experiments, now bubbling up.
Anyway, during downtime I sometimes I also watch reality TV – Survivor, The Ultimate Fighter, and the Bachelor.…
|August 19, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized|
I’ve had a lot of time to experiment with different self-tracking methods and metrics. Here’s what I’ve concluded:
The most important metric you can track is daily conscientiousness. Use a 1-5 rating.
Conscientiousness is the degree of correspondence between your actions and the dictates of your higher self. High conscientiousness means you do the work you feel you ought to, when you feel you ought to do it. Low conscientiousness means your lizard brain is in the driver’s seat.…
|August 18, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized|
I took Accutane around sophomore year of college. I’m now 30.
Gradually I began having problems, but onset was slow, probably due to the way Accutane targets stem cell longevity. I already had some minor hereditary digestive issues, which masked the onset. So it was a case of the frog in the slowly boiling pot. And I had many other issues to distract me, as one would expect for a young Christian MT deepsocket.…
|August 17, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized|
Krauser’s written a good article: “5 MINDSETS THAT SHOW YOU DON’T “GET IT” (SECRET SOCIETY)”
Points on which we’re in agreement:
MYTH: Men give love for sex. Women give sex for love.
TRUTH: Women have two types of sex – transactional and validational.
MYTH: You get angry that women cheat.
TRUTH: You get angry that you are the guy they cheat on rather than the guy they cheat with.
MYTH: Women are either Good Girls or Bad Girls.
|August 3, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Uncategorized|
I need to build an anthropometric database. Specifications:
Three pictures per record:
Face – Frontal
Face – Profile
Multiple fields per record, to be announced.
Support for manual sorting process:
I need a layout that permits me to compare three records, then adjust their ranking along a specific trait axis.
For example, let’s say I am rating the database by nose size. I will sort the database by the “nose size” field. I will switch to a three pane layout showing profile face pics.…
|May 26, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Health, Learning Koanic Soul, Personal history|
First, a health update.
I managed to knock out as much variance as is possible from my unmedicated state. I’ve found my baseline, with infinite trouble and sacrifice. This permits me to perform the actual cure round of experiments with clean data and confident results.
That said, my energy level and executive function still suck. I can’t eat salt, so I have to absorb it through the skin by a bath. I’ve got my own personal Dead Sea in the bathroom.…
|April 29, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
Just when I’d decided perfection of work ethic during fatigue was impossible, and stopped trying to achieve it, I found the way.
I didn’t change anything about the koan setup. I just understood the meaning better.
It was the circle around the switchboard that was the key. I looked at it differently. I saw that it was a summoning circle – for my own consciousness. For we are spirit, bound to flesh. Without that spirit, our bodies would be something – not quite the Forged of JRR Martin, but something more animal, certainly.…
|April 29, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
So. Guess the composition of farmed shrimp feed? 1/3 soy, 1/3 wheat, and 1/4 fish meal. Which fish are also fed on soy and wheat, no doubt.
So it’s damned if you do, damned if you don’t. Wild caught shrimp is TPP, live farmed is soy+gluten infused. Perhaps that’s why my experiment with live shrimp was significantly worse than the my usual travails with the frozen variety.
I’m so exhausted by the disaster of that experiment that I don’t even have any emotion about it.…
|April 27, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Christianity, Learning Koanic Soul|
If I had to select three silmarils from all literature, The King James Bible and Tolstoy’s War and Peace would be two. I’m open to suggestions for the third.
I have made three small refinements to the koan system described in the previous post, which greatly increase my productivity and peace.
Here are the updated pics:
1. Added a closed eye beneath the “suffer” cluster.
2. Deleted the hourglass in the middle; replaced it with a circle.…
|April 25, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
Thanks to a power outage, I consumed some spoiled shrimp meat and went down again. At least, that’s what I think happened. Alternatively, I can only eat the juice of the farmed live shrimp, not the meat. Alternatively, both juice and meat are irritating: the meat extremely so, the juice mildly so. Next week’s experiment will clarify. In any case, mineral depletion and continual exposure to varying levels of TPP are solved.
Being sick, I had the opportunity to test my koans again in a fatigued, low-willpower, suffering state.…
|April 17, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Health|
Fuckers add it on the boats before freezing the catch. Sodium Tripolyphosphate = STP. A preservative that makes seafood look more appetizing and increases water retention (more weight = more $$). Up to 2% STP content for the USA, I read somewhere. I’m sure in China it goes higher.
I’m allergic as fuck to it, as I already knew. But what I didn’t realize is, it’s in damn near all seafood, and rarely ever labeled. 90% of supermarket shrimp in the US contaminated, according to a random internet commenter.…
|April 14, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Nonsense|
Brothers of the Sphere of Man, I hereby depart you. Nay, stay me not – though a single oak-scented tear doth glint my rugged cheek! For I am but a loony-toon marshmallow, and can no longer bear the slings and arrows of outrageous perspicacity.
It started off cool. Forney’s article semi- killed it. If anyone else “leaves the manosphere”, it’s going to be eye rolls and “oh come on”.
Really? You left? To where? You’re a man, you’re writing about the same shit, ergo you didn’t go anywhere.…
|April 9, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Game, Learning Koanic Soul|
[this is just a waypoint on the road to the system's final form]
In the mind there are only two things: concepts and emotional energy (hereafter referred to as simply energy). Action is downstream of both, and even if the signal is sent, it may not be obeyed. Thus it may be ignored.
One may view the mind as a three stage system – input, processing and output of CE (concepts/energy).
The flow of CE through the three part system has three possible conditions – blocked, turbulent and adaptive.…
|April 7, 2014||Posted by Koanic under unity|
In many ways I’m like a factory whose reactor has been offline. The bots scurried around improving designs and machinery for a decade, but everything awaited core spinup. Thanks to the trialstream scientific approach, core spinup is achieved. Now factory systems are coming to life – systems unrecognizable from what existed on the floor 10 years ago, the last time it was running.
With the reactor (health) safely running in trialstream mode, I next turned my attention to implementing trialstream in the next life domain.…
|April 5, 2014||Posted by Koanic under unity|
Goals are stupid, as I’ve explained before in great detail. My new “predesplan” paradigm, the correct replacement for goals, will prove this once and for all.
Not only goals, but also desires are stupid. What do I want? Dumb question. I want a hot feminine pliant attentive girlfriend. Two would be better. I also want solitude, which conflicts with the girlfriend(s). I want a huge bank account and steady income, but also free time and fulfilling work.…
|April 4, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
Every good fortress needs a gate, an opening, even a weak point. So saith the 7 Samurai. MindOS agrees that the personal boundary must be porous – neither wholly open nor shut.
While my inner hand koans have remained stable and unchanged, the outer have evolved.
On the wrist, I’ve put BedrocK, divided over the two wrists: Bed | rocK.
This symbolizes my successful implementation of the holistic self-tracking, experiment-management, and regimen adherence health system I put into place.…
|April 1, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
In a recent post, Frost extolled the masculine scowl. A badge of independent, rebel manhood. But what is it? And why doesn’t an ingenopath do it? Today I learned.
The ingenopath recognizes the rights and claims of everyone and everything as absolute, leaving literally nothing for himself.
The scowl is a freedom from commitment to anything save one’s inner integrity. It is the dangerous, unpredictable freedom of a man. Nature’s bright red markings on a poisonous insect; the rattle of Gadsden’s “Don’t tread on me”.…
|March 31, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Civilization|
Everything necessary to set economic policy for a nation can be summarized in a short list of first principles.
1. What is an (ideal) nation?
Read Beard’s “A History of the United States”. Note the importance of protective tariffs on the nascence and then subsequent explosion of industry, and for national security. Note the growth of socialist government intervention as the economy scaled and decadent rot set in – beginning with “trust busting” and even earlier at the crash of 1819.…
|March 31, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
There remained one last lesson to perfect my koan setup. It had not undergone a true suffering test – the fatigue/pain cycle characteristic of my illness.
In my latest health trial, I’d cut down to just shrimp and rice. I hypothesized that either shrimp or Blue Ice was causing problems. Gradually I reduced shrimp intake until I was getting either insufficient protein or salt, or both. As malnutrition increased, various symptoms of fatigue and salt depletion increased.…
|March 28, 2014||Posted by Koanic under Learning Koanic Soul|
** A meandering transition
Apropos nothing, claiming that the Problem of Evil disproves Christianity is about as intelligent as saying the Matrix I is unrealistic because people can’t actually fly.
When I started creating the Koanic Soul meditation system, I thought, “This stuff will be universal.” Just as, when I first encountered Tex’s Neanderthal theory, I thought, “Aha, we are all Neanderthals.” In both cases, the initial insight merely broke the first ground in a tremendously complex field.…